Nyxie☆ミ

People don’t realize that they are ruining healthy relationships by thinking that they are better alone and they have a strong mindset with a big “ego”.

Is ego really worth this much to ruin a perfectly good relationship and ghosting people? It’s just immaturity seriously.

I’m really glad I’m muslim cuz no matter what, cuz muslim people bro…one can never succeed in ignoring her companions even though she sometimes thinks stuff like “I’m better alone, I don’t need them, my ego gets hurt when they don’t reply to me so why would I reply them back” yada yada..

I personally don’t ever do this to the people who mean a lot to me. Even if i’m busy and can’t reply or talk much to them. even if they ghost me, I did, do and would always communicate with them first.

I don’t like what these new generation people are making up these days. I hate people who ruin healthy relationships because of tiktok standards and watching “motivational” vids and taking everything the wrong way.
I’ve lost too many people to even think of that.

I could never leave someone even If they hurt me too badly. I would still be polite and nice. But not so close. But why do people shut off a person who never hurt them before…?

I never was, am or will be that person who leaves someone at their worst for my own “self development” bullshit. It’s a fucking promise.

2 days ago | [YT] | 4

Nyxie☆ミ

In the back of my mind
You died
And I didn’t even cry
No, not a single tear
And I’m sick of waiting patiently
For someone that won’t even arrive…

1 week ago | [YT] | 3

Nyxie☆ミ

Sometimes, I see or hear about a few things, that make me feel so depressed.
It’s like an out of body experience you know? Like the times when you experienced something so traumatic that you feel like your soul is just in someone else’s body for a temporary while.
It’s just…unreal…It feels like I’m watching someone else’s life play out before my eyes. And the worst part? You go numb. You can’t feel anything. You just have this heavy something inside you and you can’t shake it off. You can’t even cry or let it out.
Instead you smile wide, creepy eyed. Going absolutely crazy. Unable to bear the overwhelming pain and realization of seeing your whole life ruined in front of you. Why, you ask? It happens when you realize life is not always roses and sunshine, It can be so traumatic that the word itself can not bear the weight of it.
That’s why people take the cowards way out. Die. You know what? Dying doesn’t even sound appealing anymore. I want to sometimes ruin myself more than I already am ruined. From the inside, there’s nothing left of me.

I…don’t know how I wrote all this.It just..my fingers just expressed a tiny bit of my thoughts.
I’m drowning in depression.

I’m a psychologically deep feeler. There are only a few things in the whole world that made me shut down completely. Sometimes for even years at once.

People make all this to make a person go insane? And most of these are real stories…seriously, I’m grateful for my life. I can’t imagine going through that level of trauma that kills a person even.

1 week ago (edited) | [YT] | 2

Nyxie☆ミ

Fell in love for the first time
With a friend, it's a good sign
Feeling off when I feel fine
21 took a lifetime…

People say I look happy
Just because I got skinny
But the old me is still me and maybe the real me
And I think she's pretty…


Am I acting my age now?
Am I already on the way out?

When I step off the stage, I'm a bird in a cage
I'm a dog in a dog pound..


And you said I was your secret
And you didn't get to keep it
And the internet is hungry for the meanest kind of funny
And somebody's gotta feed it :)

1 week ago | [YT] | 3

Nyxie☆ミ

Man, am I the greatest..?
God, I hate it
All my love and patience
Unappreciated
You said your heart was jaded
You couldn't even break it
I shouldn't have to say it


You could've been the greatest.

1 week ago | [YT] | 0

Nyxie☆ミ

Y’all-

17th among 64 students selected.
Am I allowed to flex it? Fuck it, I don’t need to even be allowed.

✨🖤🫶🏻

2 weeks ago (edited) | [YT] | 3

Nyxie☆ミ

Just half an hour before the next day comes. It’s still 7 September, 2026.

Happy birthday to Zade (zaddyyyy😭✨)
Hope you stay as psychotic as you are in the book🥹🫶🏻

(call me crazy idc)


Thanks for existing…uh…at least in the book?😭

Thanks to H.D CARLTON for creating OUR man😭🖤

Thanks to Zade for occupying my mind always🫶🏻 I ABSOLUTELY LOVE YOUR HETEROCHROMIC EYES! Hope to see you with your “little mouse” soon in a movie

😭 (smtng’s wrong with me defo)

‪@Harmony_srz‬ girllll you’re the only one who loves the book here. Wish him a late hbd😭

2 weeks ago | [YT] | 3

Nyxie☆ミ

Helloooo!
Just wanted to tell y’all my exams went well. Now i’m waiting for the results. I hope it comes out soon!

Hehe fake glasses lmao

2 weeks ago | [YT] | 5

Nyxie☆ミ

Guys…I won’t be active much on any app this year anymore. See you next year.
(I’m in a lot of pressure right now. I am physically getting so ill because of the excessive stress. I am running from one hospital to another almost every week now)
Pray for me y’all. So that I can achieve what I’m working so hard for. :)

Will miss you🤎🍂

‪@Harmony_srz‬ ‪@Achyie-_-Me‬ ‪@rikkest07‬ ‪@creepyatumn‬ ‪@Fayelyn_Films‬ ‪@aestheticXnaush‬ ‪@Lunaracha0s_143‬ ‪@Mizukie_bora‬ ‪@Luna_Celestial‬ ​⁠‪@JaNNaT_X_YuMee‬ @all.

3 weeks ago | [YT] | 0

Nyxie☆ミ

You and I will never end, little mouse. Even when we’re six feet under, and our bones are dust, I will haunt your soul until it aches to be free of me. And then, I will hold you tighter.
~Zade Meadows

I can…never get enough of him. Something’s really wrong with me but I couldn’t care less.

1 month ago | [YT] | 6