Addiction is a very taboo subject, nobody in the social media world really likes to talk about it or admit to it because of back lash. I don’t give a shit what people think of me. If more people spoke up, less people would feel ashamed. If I can help 1 person I’ve accomplished what I set out to do.
Before checking myself into a NA (narcotics anonymous) rehabilitation facility in Indias 5 star rehab center in New Delhi (SANCTUM), I had the same thoughts everyone else had, weak minded, undisciplined, only junkies go to rehab I’m sound I’m not like them. It was that egotistical mindset that stopped me getting help when I know I needed it a long time ago. I had embraced the substance fueled travel Vlogger personality for so long It was no longer a personality.
I’m grateful to everyone around me who could see my career and myself deteriorating in front of them, every time I’d meet one of the lads abroad they’d say ‘Callan your getting worse’. I always laughed it off because weirdly I took pride in being able to take 10x more substances in 24 hours than anyone I’d ever met and still have energy to do the exact same the next day. At first I’d be inconsistent on vlogs and other obligations for a week at a time. Then over time 1 week turned into 2 weeks , 2 turned into 3 and after a while It started being month long benders with nothing to show for it but a massive drop in my funds and no memory of anything I’d done the past month. I always promised of some type of crazy expedition or trip but my habit would always get the better of me. If I couldn’t find it I’d go to where I could, if that meant bailing out on the promised trip then so be it. For that I apologize.
I truly believe if I didn’t check myself in 30 days ago I wouldn’t be alive to see much longer, not because I’m some manic depressive, which I’m nowhere near, but I know my heart would’ve exploded or I would’ve easily had a stroke because my blood pressure on arrival and for the past month has been in dangerous territory. I have been in and out of hospital having ECGs and Echo scans this passed month due to my blood pressure and heart rate. It’s crazy to think I could die at 26 years old.
30 days is not enough to change every wrong doing you’ve ever done daily for years but it’s a start. I’m looking forward to the future and what’s to come.
Thank you for everyone who’s put up with me through this time and everyone who’s still watched and supported me. Maybe one day I’ll go on a podcast or write a best selling tell all book but not yet.
To anyone that’s struggling, If you need help with any addiction just reach out to someone. No one’s addiction is worse or less than someone else’s. I cannot preach it enough.
The next few days I will be putting out 2 videos while I have been here. One speaking about my addiction and recovery and another day in the life one. Then back to normal to finish this India trip off.
I truly believe if I can get sober anyone can. We’re all human.
This is the upcoming trip (not finalized) India to Pakistan borders are meant to be on hold so I’m thinking to right then through Nepal mountains into Pakistan. But this is the plan. 3 countries in a camper van 🚐
Had to take the YouTube video down because me 🍆 was out and I didn’t notice I deleted it and went to edit it and I’ve removed it completely from my laptop after I edited..
I’ve lost the vlog I’m sorry. Basically I’ve gone back to Vietnam 6 months later to finish the trip and my bike is still there. You havnt missed much it was only 20 minutes
I’m gutted 🤣 at least it’s not small
New Vlog be out tomorrow 5pm. Daily for 3 weeks ❤️🤣👌🏻
CallanBowl
The last 2 vlogs were recommended on the comments of a post on Facebook.
What shall I do next while I’m in India (the 🚐 is back this week)
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CallanBowl
30 Days In Rehab ❤️🙏🏻
Addiction is a very taboo subject, nobody in the social media world really likes to talk about it or admit to it because of back lash. I don’t give a shit what people think of me. If more people spoke up, less people would feel ashamed. If I can help 1 person I’ve accomplished what I set out to do.
Before checking myself into a NA (narcotics anonymous) rehabilitation facility in Indias 5 star rehab center in New Delhi (SANCTUM), I had the same thoughts everyone else had, weak minded, undisciplined, only junkies go to rehab I’m sound I’m not like them. It was that egotistical mindset that stopped me getting help when I know I needed it a long time ago. I had embraced the substance fueled travel Vlogger personality for so long It was no longer a personality.
I’m grateful to everyone around me who could see my career and myself deteriorating in front of them, every time I’d meet one of the lads abroad they’d say ‘Callan your getting worse’. I always laughed it off because weirdly I took pride in being able to take 10x more substances in 24 hours than anyone I’d ever met and still have energy to do the exact same the next day. At first I’d be inconsistent on vlogs and other obligations for a week at a time. Then over time 1 week turned into 2 weeks , 2 turned into 3 and after a while It started being month long benders with nothing to show for it but a massive drop in my funds and no memory of anything I’d done the past month. I always promised of some type of crazy expedition or trip but my habit would always get the better of me. If I couldn’t find it I’d go to where I could, if that meant bailing out on the promised trip then so be it. For that I apologize.
I truly believe if I didn’t check myself in 30 days ago I wouldn’t be alive to see much longer, not because I’m some manic depressive, which I’m nowhere near, but I know my heart would’ve exploded or I would’ve easily had a stroke because my blood pressure on arrival and for the past month has been in dangerous territory. I have been in and out of hospital having ECGs and Echo scans this passed month due to my blood pressure and heart rate. It’s crazy to think I could die at 26 years old.
30 days is not enough to change every wrong doing you’ve ever done daily for years but it’s a start. I’m looking forward to the future and what’s to come.
Thank you for everyone who’s put up with me through this time and everyone who’s still watched and supported me. Maybe one day I’ll go on a podcast or write a best selling tell all book but not yet.
To anyone that’s struggling, If you need help with any addiction just reach out to someone. No one’s addiction is worse or less than someone else’s. I cannot preach it enough.
The next few days I will be putting out 2 videos while I have been here. One speaking about my addiction and recovery and another day in the life one. Then back to normal to finish this India trip off.
I truly believe if I can get sober anyone can. We’re all human.
Callan 2.0
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CallanBowl
Meeting @miketyson in Amsterdam with @Deanalex7
Always good to see @DrewIsSharing
2 months ago | [YT] | 372
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CallanBowl
Do I shave my head bald and keep the beard until the van journey is complete?
3 months ago | [YT] | 65
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CallanBowl
The India YouTube series is upon us. What do we think about my new whip??
3 months ago | [YT] | 466
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This is the upcoming trip (not finalized) India to Pakistan borders are meant to be on hold so I’m thinking to right then through Nepal mountains into Pakistan. But this is the plan. 3 countries in a camper van 🚐
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CallanBowl
6 months later the bike has returned! Vietnam 🇻🇳 baby! We are finishing what we started
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CallanBowl
Had to take the YouTube video down because me 🍆 was out and I didn’t notice
I deleted it and went to edit it and I’ve removed it completely from my laptop after I edited..
I’ve lost the vlog I’m sorry. Basically I’ve gone back to Vietnam 6 months later to finish the trip and my bike is still there. You havnt missed much it was only 20 minutes
I’m gutted 🤣 at least it’s not small
New Vlog be out tomorrow 5pm. Daily for 3 weeks ❤️🤣👌🏻
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CallanBowl
The Tuktuk has gone. It’s gone vlog be up in 2 days sick to death of it same crap. New series. Gave it to a animal sanctuary as a donation
5 months ago | [YT] | 171
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CallanBowl
Cambodia ROAD TRIP 🇰🇭
6 months ago | [YT] | 599
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