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I guess I don't need to explain myself if people think i am the villian of their story then let it be ..peace out

11 hours ago | [YT] | 3

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I get accepted to join tiffanythinks Facebook group and then I write and it’s accepted and then suddenly I see I am blocked from the group :/

12 hours ago | [YT] | 5

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I came on live stream yesterday

13 hours ago | [YT] | 2

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Nothing is normal when you have cancer. Everything changes, and so does your body, face, mind, and soul. Everything turns 360 degrees. It’s like being forced to be fine when you are fully drained. Not from people’s comments, but from cancer itself. Cancer pain, cancer fatigue, cancer life, cancer patients. I am just tired of cancer :(

I am drained from doing biopsies and, yes, the unknown words that will be exchanged on the day. You don’t know what lymphoma is, and now you don’t know if it’s still WM lymphoma, or has it converted to another cancer, or has there been overlapping cancer. So many things are rushing through my mind like racing cars.

I am that scared now. I just wish I had the feeling of knowing what I had, like last time in 2021. It is really hard to look back at those photos and videos taken, which is why I didn’t open up much about it, because I am traumatised. Not because I don’t want to be transparent about it, purposely not show it, or try to withhold information. I just find there is a lot of information I didn’t mention because I am that traumatised to this day 🕧 also I have anxiety when I talk about cancer itself :/

23 hours ago | [YT] | 4

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1 day ago | [YT] | 5

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The old version of me is not who I am anymore. I won’t allow anyone to mock or disrespect me. I am done with negative people in my life. I already had to deal with my toxic family.

1 day ago | [YT] | 6

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It’s not about how not transparent you are; it’s about how much you choose to share online. Cancer is confidential, to be honest, and everyone can decide how much they want to tell people. Sharing a major moment or surgery may even lead to anxiety or panic attacks.

1 day ago (edited) | [YT] | 3

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Be strong 💪
You can do this
I can kick the cancer out this time
I know it’s hard
I know I have been through awful painful situations ❤️‍🩹
#fightingcancer #healingjourney #narccisst #toxicfamily #cancerjourney #komalvlogs

1 day ago | [YT] | 6

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I’m already emotional 😭 I can’t stop thinking about what diagnosis I’ll get on Monday. There’s so much suspense, and my mind keeps going to the worst-case scenario. My life has always been full of painful surprises. Honestly, I don’t even want to go on Monday. There will also be two social workers in the consultant’s room, and I don’t know what that means 😓 Please pray that I’m strong enough to handle whatever news I receive. Going alone feels so daunting, especially after having no contact with my family. If I feel ready, I’ll update you through a YouTube video rather than here or on social media. Maybe that will help me start my vlogs again for you all ❤️

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1 day ago (edited) | [YT] | 9

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I am now on Facebook: www.facebook.com/kvlogsyoutube1/
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1 day ago | [YT] | 4