Mr Fam First

BEING WITH YOU STILL FEEL LIKE BEING BY MYSELF

Being with you still feel like being by myself.

Not physically.
Emotionally.

You here…
but you not here.

We talk, but it feel surface.
I open up, and it feel rushed.
I explain how I feel, and somehow I end up apologizing for having feelings at all.

I don’t feel chosen.
I feel tolerated.

Like my presence is convenient
but my emotions are a burden.

I’m not asking you to save me.
I’m not asking you to fix me.

I’m asking you to sit with me
when I’m not at my best
and not make me feel crazy for needing you.

The silence between us getting louder.
I can feel it in the room.
In the way you nod but don’t respond.
In the way your phone get more attention than my voice.

And what hurts most
ain’t even the distance.

It’s realizing
I’ve been slowly learning how to be lonely
right next to the person I love.

I’ve started withholding parts of myself
because they don’t feel safe here.

That’s dangerous.
For me.
For us.

Because when love stop feeling like a place to land
and start feeling like something I gotta survive…

That’s when people don’t leave loud.
They leave quiet.

And by the time you notice,
I’ve already been gone.

— Mr. Fam First
Loneliness inside relationships hurts deeper than being alone.
#chooseyou #spokenword #poetry #relationships

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Mr Fam First

Save this if you’re done chasing noise.

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Mr Fam First

🔒10 QUIET MOVES TO MAKE ALONE

Before January Ends

(So 2026 Don’t Play With You)

1. Audit What’s Stealing Your Focus

In silence.

Look at what pulls you every day:

apps

people

habits

thoughts


You don’t owe explanations.
Just reduce access.

Focus ain’t about hype.
It’s about removal.


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2. Write the Truth You Keep Dodging

Open your notes. No filters.

Ask yourself: “What am I pretending is okay… but really isn’t?”

Don’t fix it yet.
Just admit it.

Truth is the first form of discipline.


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3. Clean One Small Space

Not the whole crib.
One drawer. One shelf. One bag.

Your mind reflects your surroundings.
Chaos outside = noise inside.

Order creates calm.
Even when it’s small.


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4. Set Your 2026 Standards

Not goals.
Standards.

Things like:

minimum sleep

how people speak to you

what you refuse to overwork for


Standards move different than motivation.


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5. Sit in Boredom for 10 Minutes

On purpose.

No phone.
No music.
No distractions.

Boredom resets your brain.
That’s where clarity comes back.

Silence sharpens you.


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6. Cut One Drain

Just one.

late-night scrolling

saying yes too fast

checking your phone first thing


You don’t need more habits yet.
Subtraction works faster than addition.


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7. Write a Letter You’ll Never Send

To:

who you used to be

someone you outgrew

yourself 6 months ahead


Unspoken emotions stay heavy.
Write them out.

Closure don’t need permission.


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8. Create a Morning Anchor

Not a whole routine.
An anchor.

One thing you do every morning no matter what:

water

sunlight

stretch

3 deep breaths


Consistency beats intensity every time.


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9. Pick One Silent Goal

One thing you work on privately for 90 days.

No announcements.
No posts.
No explaining.

Moves multiply faster in silence.


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10. Sit With This Question

“If nothing changes… will I respect this version of me a year from now?”

Don’t rush the answer.

Discomfort is data.
That’s how real growth starts.

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Mr Fam First

You don’t need a trust fund.
You need 17 minutes and discipline.

$50 turns into habits.
Habits turn into ownership.
Ownership turns into freedom.

Start small. Start scared. Just start.

👉 Save this post, follow @MrFamFirst, and send it to one person still “waiting for the right time.”

#StartWhereYouAre #OwnSomething #MrFamFirst

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Mr Fam First

I had to heal so I wouldn’t bleed on people who never cut me.

That survival mode kept me sharp…
but it also kept me defensive.

I was reacting to old pain in new rooms
and calling it “being real.”

Truth is
healing didn’t make me soft.
It made me safer.

If this hit you, sit with it.
If it called you out, don’t scroll past it.
Share it with somebody who’s still carrying wounds they never cleaned.

#HealingJourney #RealTalk #Growth #mindset

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Mr Fam First

“Your circle can make you rich… or bury you.”

Watch who you call “the homies.”
Some people ain’t holding you down — they holding you back.

This is Trap Lessons #3.
Drop a 💯 if you feel this.

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Mr Fam First

Most men don’t lose their relationship in one moment.
They lose it inch by inch.

Less conversation.
Less curiosity.
More silence.
More “I’m tired.”

You’re still present physically, but emotionally you’ve checked out.

Here’s the part men avoid:
love doesn’t survive on good intentions.
It survives on attention.

If your woman feels alone, don’t argue with that truth.
Lead through awareness before life forces the lesson.

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Mr Fam First

Some prayers don’t sound holy.
They sound tired.
They sound like a man who keeps showing up
even when he’s empty.

This isn’t weakness.
This is what strength sounds like
when nobody’s watching.

If this felt familiar…
you’re not alone.

— Mr. Fam First

#MrFamFirst
#MenWhoPray
#BlackMenHealing
#SilentBattles
#EmotionalStrength
#FaithAndManhood

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