Ethan Horahn

🌿 Camus vs. Laozi: Two Ways to Carry Emotion

A small thought I’ve been exploring lately:

🔥 Camus needs emotional intensity.
Sisyphus’ eternal labor becomes a metaphor for human routine - labor, repetition, no final reward.
Yet Camus says: “One must imagine Sisyphus happy.”
True freedom, for him, comes from knowing life has no ultimate meaning… and choosing to live passionately 𝑨𝒏𝒚𝒘𝒂𝒚.
His revolt against the absurd runs on passion, friction, and the intensity of a Don Juan-like life - an overclocked CPU burning hot. ⚡

🌊 Laozi needs emotional clarity.
Wuwei isn’t passivity; it’s alignment with the system.
Meaning comes from moving with the world’s architecture — low noise, stable signal, wide bandwidth.
Not emotional extremes, but emotional fluidity. 🍃

✨One burns hotter.
One runs deeper.

I’m starting to think:
Passion despite the system isn’t rebellion — it’s indulgence.
But adapting, updating, and aligning with reality…
that feels like the sustainable path. 🌱
Life isn’t absurd — we just don’t fully understand the system yet.

Just a small note from my quiet corner. 🪐

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1 week ago | [YT] | 24

Ethan Horahn

𝙞 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖 𝙙𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙢 🌙

i have a dream —
to simply be a BGM guy.
a quiet presence in someone’s late-night playlist,
a small voice drifting through a tiny café,
or a companion in someone’s 2AM heartache. 🎧

i have a dream —
that maybe one day,
i’ll gather 10 or 20 souls from different corners of the world.
not many.
just a handful who understand without needing explanations.

i don’t care if it takes years.
patience is easy when the dream is quiet. 🌾

i have a dream —
that someday those souls will meet
in a cool, peaceful place.
no need for big conversations.
maybe we can laugh, or cry,
or just sit there knowing we exist beside one another.

and maybe —
that one day, our paths will cross in the real world —
soul to soul, presence to presence. ✨

not living too close,
just close enough to feel each other’s existence —
safe, warm, understood. 🕊️

life doesn’t ask for too much.
water, food, a bit of sunshine,
and knowledge to keep the soul awake.

the rest…
we leave to time. ⏳💭

3 weeks ago | [YT] | 33

Ethan Horahn

Only solitude is eternal.✨ — 𝑶𝒏𝒆 𝑯𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒀𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝑺𝒐𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒖𝒅𝒆

All the radiance in life seems to come with loneliness 🌙
The past is an illusion. Memory is a road with no end, all the springs that once were can never be restored. and even the strongest love eventually fades 💔 Only solitude lasts 🕊️

We don’t die when we “should,” but when we can ⏳ Most traces of our existence vanish after a few generations 🌌 Life has no inherent meaning — we come, we live, we leave. Yet we still feel, still love, still exist ❤️

Sometimes I think of life and death like a system 💻 We are tiny pieces of code inside the universe ♾️ Death isn’t the end; it’s a format shift. We don’t disappear, we just dissolve peacefully back into the source code — the infinite loop where all existence runs. 🔄 We live inside the loop, debug ourselves, and someday merge back to the Source.

Chaos and logic, heart and mind, emptiness and fullness — they balance each other ⚖️ Live free, die well ☀️

maybe it quietly finds someone who understands ✨

♾️

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4 weeks ago | [YT] | 23

Ethan Horahn

Gradually and Suddenly

The sun rises. Always, slowly… then all at once.

People often notice the sudden: a song uploaded, a little spark of sound, a presence felt.
They don’t see the gradual: the nights quietly coding, the small tweaks no one notices, the patience over weeks and months.

𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓢𝓾𝓷 𝓐𝓵𝓼𝓸 𝓡𝓲𝓼𝓮𝓼 reminds us of this — life drifts quietly, until suddenly, something clicks.

Gradually… suddenly… time tells. Time tests. And that’s enough.
The sun rises, and we rise with it.

1 month ago | [YT] | 25

Ethan Horahn

🌌 maybe “debugging the soul” takes longer than we thought.
🌑 not every orbit finds sunlight;
🌑 some of us just learn to glow in dusk.
✨// fragments of a quiet soul.exe
✨whispering to the void, hoping the void listens back.
💫 between code and silence, someone reads me line by line — no errors, just echoes.

/* ████████████████ PURPLE_PLANET / NON_SUNSHINE ████████████████ */
#timestamp=2025-10-30T22:47Z
#author=E.H.
_∆=(()=>{let ψ=["☁️","🩶","🌫️"];let Ω=["☀️","🙂","💨"];let λ=false;
function σ(α){return α?Ω:ψ;}
function ζ(β){return β.map(e=>e+"~").join("");}
let Θ={smile:1, talkLess:1, hidden:ψ, seenBy:"Elwatchie"};
return {
orbit:"binary_stars",
observer:Θ.seenBy,
output:ζ(σ(λ)),
status:Θ
}})();
console['log'](`~${_∆.output}~ reading line by line, no error thrown 🪐`);
export default _∆;
/* ████████████████ END LOG ████████████████ */

1 month ago | [YT] | 29

Ethan Horahn

🌙 I sketch my songs quietly,
lines of MusicXML like whispers of thought,
piano and guitar tracing shadows,
voice drifting softly through the code.

No stage. No spotlight.
Just sounds left for hearts that listen,
moments where imperfect, human beats meet precision.

— Ethan ✨

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