Spencer Cruz {VA🎙}

‪@StrawberrySana‬​ YAYYYY TYSM
(Whatever this means, idk how any of the You Tube works :sob_emoji:)

1 month ago (edited) | [YT] | 4

Spencer Cruz {VA🎙}

For context, please see the screenshots below, which demonstrate only a sliver of the colossal wave of negativity I've been facing.

This is the perfect example of why you don't get on the bad side of somebody with more subscribers than you. They can say whatever they want about you, completely fabricated if they want to, and the public will always believe them blindly due to their subs, and Eileen likely knows the power differential between us, and people like that can and will abuse that power. It's disheartening to see that popularity can silence truth and encourage abuse.
Honestly, I really didn't want to make this public. This should have been a private matter, but Eileen's efforts to make me look like the bad guy in a server full of people who do not have the full context have left me no other choice.
I won't go too into detail because that's Eileen and I's private business, but mainly because she's angry that I unfriended her after I couldn't take any more mistreatment from her. If this is how she wants to treat the same man who once talked her and her two nameless friends out of suicide, that's a decision I may have to accept. It pains me to say this, but I don't want to be in a community where the abuser gets the last laugh.
This is going to be a very difficult decision to make, but with that being said, I have decided to leave the Solarballs community indefinitely. This choice wasn't made lightly, but recent events have made it clear that it's necessary for my own well-being.
In contrast, I want to highlight the kind of environment I cherish. I have a FNaF-fandom friend group on a Discord group chat called Literal Remnant. Everyone there is so incredibly chill. Nothing more than wholesome young adults I've known for years, discussing FNaF lore, and tackling personal topics within ourselves. I love all 9 of them so much. They're my people. They truly understand me. That's the kind of community I WANT to publicly display myself in.
Wheras on the other hand, you have the Solarballs fandom, which is KNOWN for being nothing but fights and drama. It's so exhausting. I've witnessed nazi politicians less awful than certain 10-14-year-olds in this fandom. They're not even spoiled or misunderstood, just straight-up malicious, horrible people.
I just want to make this clear, I want NOTHING bad to happen to Eileen. Despite her hypocrisy, I wish no ill will against her, even after... this.
PLEASE do not harass Eileen. Do not attack her. Do not bully her. Do not throw shade at Through The Universe. Do not cause her any emotional harm. She may have gossiped about me, lied about me, and irresponsibly thrown me under a microscope and said, "I'm mad because Spencer won't fogive me! That makes HIM the bad guy! Believe me because I'm famous! Make fun of him, everyone! Look how responsible I am with my fanbase!", but I am better than that. Think whatever you want about either of us, but please, do not attack her directly. If you want to blame her for me leaving, I only ask that you please do it away from your keyboard. We may have our differences, but after everything, the last thing I seek is retaliation.
I still respect her privacy, even though she clearly doesn't respect mine.
She can call me unprofessional, she can call me immature, she can call me bratty, she can call me a coward, she can call me whatever she wants. All she's going to do is prove my point faster.
On a lighter note, I also want to assure you that my Solarballs-related videos aren't going anywhere. Furthermore, the Solarballs-related content I've been working on will still come out whenever I finish them. But other than that, I'm distancing myself towards other things. I don't want to stay out forever, but at the same time, I don't want to make any promises too soon.

Thank you all so much for your understanding and support.
Farewell.

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1 month ago (edited) | [YT] | 7

Spencer Cruz {VA🎙}

Hey everyone! 😄 HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!

I just wanted to take a moment to apologize for the recent lack of uploads! Life threw a few curveballs, and between the lack of ideas and a little dip in motivation, it’s been a bit of a slow patch. But guess what? I’m NOT giving up, and I’m getting my creative juices flowing again! 🌟✨
Thank you so much for your patience, support, and understanding, it means the world to me! 🙏 I’m excited to get back into the swing of things and share some new content with you all very soon!
Hang tight, some fresh ideas are coming your way, and we’re going to have a blast! 💥 Stay tuned, and thank you again for sticking with me! 🙌🎉

2 months ago | [YT] | 7

Spencer Cruz {VA🎙}

Don't miss ‪@ShadowLibra‬'s FNaF Theorist Disscission Live Stream!

2 months ago | [YT] | 3

Spencer Cruz {VA🎙}

TODAY'S MY BIRTHDAY WOOOOOO!!!! 🎊🎊🎊🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

6 months ago | [YT] | 14

Spencer Cruz {VA🎙}

10 DAYS TILL MY BIRTHDAY!!! 🎂🥳🎉🎈🎁🎊

7 months ago | [YT] | 10

Spencer Cruz {VA🎙}

So I finally decided to watch Alphabet Lore as a joke cuz it sounded silly.

I was NOT expecting it to be THAT EMOTIONAL.

7 months ago | [YT] | 2

Spencer Cruz {VA🎙}

Context:
youtube.com/post/UgkxRsB6ydj_vJiEss_SCn5BF7fYjK-pL…

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7 months ago | [YT] | 7

Spencer Cruz {VA🎙}

I have made the very easy decision to delete all of my Vanny Nanny videos. Comments asking why will be deleted to prevent controversy.

You should in no way take any of this personally, it's all about image in the end.

I apologize if this is seen as upsetting news to you, but it's my decision in my decision alone. I hope you all understand.
Thank you for reading, and here's to the future!

9 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 8

Spencer Cruz {VA🎙}

BIG shoutout to ‪@FNaFSoundtrack‬!
This channel is SO resourceful, helpful, high-quality, VERY fast, and that honestly makes it single-handedly the greatest soundtrack channel I think I've ever seen on this platform.
Whether you're one dude with a lot of potential and a ttention to detail, or if you're a corporation, thank you so much regardless! It's people like you who make Background music so much easier!
Much love! 🎤🐻

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