ATTAR

RIP Why Suicide Is The New 401(k)


Who would've thought a video essay on suicide would be seditious?

Optics is everything these days. I don't care for that notion. I let my work speak freely. That being said, sometimes a bobbleheaded dingus comes around and turns their lack of comprehension into ignorant snitchery. Often, the snitchery is incentivized as the companies flying these infuriating kites confuse controversy with a loss of revenue.

What was really lost was a morsel of humanity. Not the video, of course, but those that took the time to share their thoughts and experiences below it. I read every single one of them.

If it wasn't obvious, I don't condone suicide, nor have I ever promoted it. Don't kill yourself, that's a boring and trite and devastating thing to do. There are better things to do with your life, like managing your Roth IRA or working as a YouTube subcontractor at wages you'd find abhorrent.

YouTube's Community Guidelines are malleable; pliable to the outlooks and sentiments of advertisers and data hoarders--taut and furtive to creators, enforced selectively and opaquely to their creations. It's easy to parse, yet hollow and encompassing. The language is direct and truncated, yet necessitates the "including but not limited to". It saves the company a lot of face in the Platform vs. Publisher discussion, of which YouTube seems to have evaded legislative scrutiny.

Melodrama and "I'll take 'Things Out Of My Wheelhouse' for 200, Alex", aside, WSITN4 was one of my favorite videos. It's a shame the implicit message wasn't heard by whoever flagged it. It's confusing as to why the individual who reviewed it parsed the guidelines to find it's content a violation. It's sad to know that a video like it isn't allowed here. It's wild that disembodied specters can determine what's safe for you and I to watch.

YouTube wields the ban hammer. Until they don't. Let's hope censorship isn't common to the point where we can't be honest with each other anymore.

Perhaps we are already there.


- Attar

"In the end, it doesn’t matter, but this isn’t the end. So live a little, and forgo an obsession of frugality so that you might live the last years of your life in sedentary bliss and meaninglessness. Fuck a 401k. Take thought for the morrow but don’t wish upon it. And if tragedy strikes you dead, then so be it: tragedy comes for us all, in the end."

5 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 446



@wadegrillo9641

Stifling of creativity and abstract thinking is becoming a real problem across social media, in my opinion. Don’t let it discourage you, no one has every made history without facing controversy. Creators like you are more important than ever.

5 years ago (edited) | 24  

@fuzzybojangles1141

Also you're a goddamn wordsmith worthy of worldwide recognition

5 years ago | 45  

@Rscapeextreme447

I watched when it was still up. It was very meaningful. Youtube is afraid of videos that cover any real topics, so they scilence them when they gain traction.

5 years ago | 53  

@blakehamilton6649

This guy is an incredible writer, it’s disappointing to see things like this deleted

5 years ago | 6  

@Cvlebrodrigues

That was one of my all time favorite videos because it truly helped with what I am going through. I have spent the last few weeks thinking about the topic and it truly did spark quite some debate in my mind and with other people. I really wish it was still up... I have been sharing it over time with those I trust and those whom have an open mind. If you ever feel like sharing it on a different platform, please let us know. I enjoy re watching it every so often.

5 years ago | 21  

@seweragerat7041

Easily one of the most meaningful and intense videos I’ve seen in awhile.

5 years ago | 5  

@mitchellboring2709

So that’s 2 videos down. The “America’s social Justice fetish” (I think that’s what it was called... your first video) and now this. It’s a shame, both those videos were fantastic!

5 years ago | 46  

@OrangeKumquates

Honestly I can't tell you how many times I had this video playing in the background while at work, or studying, or doing any other task that lets my mind wander. Your videos or some of the most poetic and beautiful I've ever seen on this platform, and I can't describe how comforting it is to hear someone else speak the thoughts in my head in such an articulate way. ".. take flight off the nearest bridge to sprint kiss the ground below..." may seem like a random snip-it to most, but the way I anticipated that line during each re run was something which had never occurred to me while listening to or watching anything ever before. The little things you've weaved into your narrative have such a profound voice that I am actually very sad to see it lost... I hope you continue doing whatever this is, because it's beautiful <3

5 years ago | 4  

@fedicini123

If you ever share the video on another platform or have a place to download please let us know. This was one of the most unique videos I've seen and I was planning on sharing it with friends who I know would've wanted to hear it. Hopefully things go well for you in the future.

5 years ago | 6  

@fuzzybojangles1141

Please upload to Bitchute just in case! Your content is far above par and I share it all

5 years ago | 14  

@Nostalg1a

Don’t let that stuff bring you down man, it seems good content doesn’t stay up long in this platform anymore.

5 years ago | 6  

@user-iv3yy2up9v

One of my fears is that I listen to YouTube videos with my phone in my pocket. Sometimes I’ll want to switch to something else but find that it pulled up a lot of options unintentionally. Don’t know if that’s because my phone suck or something else. Anyway that was one of my favorite videos of yours.

5 years ago | 4

@jaymirabito5029

As someone who has had multiple friends/family members commit, suicide has always been a touchy topic with me. That being said, your video was inspiring and well thought out. It’s a shame to see it taken down. Problems don’t disappear because you wish them away; based on your message, I think your video had done far more good than harm, effectively making the problem worse by banning it. I wish your channel the best of luck, you certainly earned my subscription

5 years ago (edited) | 2  

@johnc4122

I’ll keep saying it... I miss the old YouTube.

5 years ago | 5  

@bohrora2293

Because it disrupts a trillion dollar industry which is set up against the customers.

5 years ago | 2  

@Gokanaru 

This post made me feel something, thank you

5 years ago | 3  

@thenaje

can you throw it up on Vimeo or some other platform? that video is legendary.

5 years ago (edited) | 3

@friendofall

Damn bro that sucks, I watched it for the first time at like 1 am. Hope you can get it back

5 years ago | 2

@ilikefrogs4291

damn i just rewatched it yesterday. good timing i guess.

5 years ago | 6

@demonhunter7541

I really loved that video. Its title was fantastic, I use it on my spotify.

5 years ago | 3