This post is regarding the future of this channel. I ask that you please read.
Before I get into the details, I first want to thank you all for being here. Thank you for giving me a chance to entertain you and make you laugh. It was wonderful to see a channel I had for nearly a decade finally shine. If you're a real OG from the pre 2020 era of my channel. Thanks for sticking around!
But that is besides the point. What I am going to tell you has been building up for nearly 3 years now, and has been kept completely to myself and a few other until now. I believe it would help for you to hear my standpoint before I explain what the future holds for Bosh.
So. You're probably wondering why my uploads have been so slow lately. I said I'd be returning to the upload schedule, but wasn't able to. And I apologize for not keeping my word. But the truth is, making these videos isn't fun like it used to be. And all attempts to broaden my channel's content only hurt it in the long run.
While it may seem sudden for me to "burn out" it really isn't sudden at all. I've been making edits of films since 2017 and even earlier than that. I've been making this kind of content for over half a decade.
And while I am very happy the channel got this far, I backed myself into a corner to get it there.
When "NO MUSIC" first blew up, I knew I had to make more content like it. I assumed people would watch other similar edits. And they did. They REALLY did. So I doubled down and dedicated myself to making this kind of content. And occasionally I made something more personal that I was more interested in. But I noticed these personal videos always performed badly compared to my other videos. And that's where the problem began.
Over time my personal projects have been buried and pushed aside more and more in favor of my more popular content. And while I was happy the content I was making was entertaining people. It really started to bother me that there was so much apathy towards my other content. More and more I noticed this as my audience grew, but there wasn't much I could do. The channel was growing so fast, there was no time for any sort of connection to be made.
And it was at this point where I realized the true gravity of the situation. My channel was old, and very special to me. But most of my audience doesn't see it like that. For many of you this is a channel where you watch a meme, exhale out of your nose, and carry on.
For me it was a humbling realization, and a sad truth for many viral videos. NO MUSIC will be remembered, but the creator won't. Nobody has even seen my face. Not even my other YouTube peers.
Realizing this, I pressed on anyway. Continuing to make the content that got me in this situation in the first place. But as time went on I became more and more bothered with my situation. But at the same time I knew this was my only chance to make something of myself, I knew NO MUSIC was just luck, and I would never forgive myself for passing on an opportunity such as this one.
As 2020 became 2021, views were looking good. The channel was growing steadily, so I decided to take a risk. I decided to bring back the "Bosh N Chill" Streams from 2020. Since I knew a lot of my audience was younger, I decided to play Minecraft as it was popular and I still enjoy the game to this day.
That first Minecraft stream hurt my channel's viewership. PERMANENTLY.
I don't blame that stream, but something strange happened to my viewership the same day that stream happened, not to mention the negative reception and people unsubscribing. My viewership never went back to what it was before that stream and to this day I'm not sure what did it. (I've heard from many creators since this, turns out livestreaming can in "some cases" actually harm your channel. Thanks YouTube)
Then only a few months later, there was the situation with the guy I used to collaborate with, aka MRMRPIZZA. That event really put a damper on how I viewed the content I was making, as I didn't want to be associated with him anymore. Even a YEAR LATER I still have people asking about it, so I've never really been able to move on from it. Even now I never have really had proper closure on that whole nightmare.
Late 2021 until now has been a slow and painful decline in my viewership. Yet I was working as hard as I possibly could.
No Music was a video I made in an hour, as a joke. But now I'm spending upwards of 10-12 hours or sometimes more for a video of the same length. As my editing got better and more complicated. It started to eat more and more of my time. The time it took to make the videos was also increasing because coming up with ideas was getting harder and harder.
Sure I could jump on a meme trend, but what about everything in between?
My channel was never a healthy one. I NEEDED to keep making content at this constant rate because my views would spike down if I took a couple days off. Hurting my channel even more.
My work ethic became very rapidly unhealthy as a result. Spending days writing down ideas that never get used, watching the movies again and again trying to rekindle that spark that NO MUSIC started, but it was no use. Things were still on the decline even after making ONLY the content I was known for. Sacrificing my passion projects to save what I had left.
The Rift? Cancelled.
Face Reveal? Cancelled.
The One Million Subscriber Special? Cancelled.
All to dedicate even more time towards the content I was "REALLY known for".
But still this changed nothing. I began to resent the same audience I was making these videos for. My fun hobby has turned into something I dread.
I think you can tell by now that YES. Working on this channel has had a major impact on my mental health and overall wellbeing. Especially in the last few months. I've spent so much time working on this channel that I haven't even left my city since 2019.
Interestingly since early 2020 I have left hidden messages in some of my videos expressing my dissatisfaction. But most of these messages went completely unnoticed. Most if not all of these show up for only 1 frame. If you are interested, see if you can find one. You can actually see my unhappiness progress in real time, with MEET THE DEMOMED being the last and most direct time I vented.
And now here we are in 2022. I have the same feelings as I did months ago, but now they're magnified more than ever.
So how do we fix this? Well... We don't,
I am heavily considering "retiring" from the channel. The constant uploads would be gone, and I'd be more inclined to make content I was wanting to make. Uploads would also be less frequent. I don't care about the numbers or subscriber anymore. I just want to have fun with my deranged little hobby again.
I've made peace with the fact that the channel is dying. It was dying last year too.
I accomplished what I set out to do. I made a viral video. We got the channel to a million subs. With everything I had hoped to accomplish with this channel being complete, I am content that it is past it's prime. (or maybe I've snapped I really don't know at this point).
I consider my backrooms video as my final popular video. And a great one to end with. It was one of the very few times in recent months that making one of these videos was fun. I like making the tf2 ones too.
The month I had with family was the first time I had taken such a long break. And ultimately it's made the new videos suffer, but I don't care anymore. The cycle I was trapped in was literally broken by the power of family. (Vin Diesel would be proud)
I also plan to stop streaming on Bosh Gaming. While that channel has over 10,000 subs, most of those subs never watched a single stream. And in hindsight all I really did in those streams was make a fool of myself. I plan to stream on this channel occasionally to ACTUALLY CHILL instead of being required to play a game.
Ugh...
Despite everything that I've been through to give you this content, it was an honor to do so. Maybe to some I was nothing more than a content farm. But I strived to make every video funny, and tried to make my edits look as good as possible. With over 350 videos made, I've shaved over 1% of my life off this planet. But it was worth it to make others happy, even at the expense of my own happiness.
I blame nobody but myself for how things turned out on this channel. I want you to know that. Ultimately the direction I took my content was my choice.
Whatever the future holds. I hope you come along for the ride. It's been an honor.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. And thank you for making my dream a reality.
Bosh
This post is regarding the future of this channel. I ask that you please read.
Before I get into the details, I first want to thank you all for being here. Thank you for giving me a chance to entertain you and make you laugh. It was wonderful to see a channel I had for nearly a decade finally shine. If you're a real OG from the pre 2020 era of my channel. Thanks for sticking around!
But that is besides the point. What I am going to tell you has been building up for nearly 3 years now, and has been kept completely to myself and a few other until now. I believe it would help for you to hear my standpoint before I explain what the future holds for Bosh.
So. You're probably wondering why my uploads have been so slow lately. I said I'd be returning to the upload schedule, but wasn't able to. And I apologize for not keeping my word. But the truth is, making these videos isn't fun like it used to be. And all attempts to broaden my channel's content only hurt it in the long run.
While it may seem sudden for me to "burn out" it really isn't sudden at all. I've been making edits of films since 2017 and even earlier than that. I've been making this kind of content for over half a decade.
And while I am very happy the channel got this far, I backed myself into a corner to get it there.
When "NO MUSIC" first blew up, I knew I had to make more content like it. I assumed people would watch other similar edits. And they did. They REALLY did. So I doubled down and dedicated myself to making this kind of content. And occasionally I made something more personal that I was more interested in. But I noticed these personal videos always performed badly compared to my other videos. And that's where the problem began.
Over time my personal projects have been buried and pushed aside more and more in favor of my more popular content. And while I was happy the content I was making was entertaining people. It really started to bother me that there was so much apathy towards my other content. More and more I noticed this as my audience grew, but there wasn't much I could do. The channel was growing so fast, there was no time for any sort of connection to be made.
And it was at this point where I realized the true gravity of the situation. My channel was old, and very special to me. But most of my audience doesn't see it like that. For many of you this is a channel where you watch a meme, exhale out of your nose, and carry on.
For me it was a humbling realization, and a sad truth for many viral videos. NO MUSIC will be remembered, but the creator won't. Nobody has even seen my face. Not even my other YouTube peers.
Realizing this, I pressed on anyway. Continuing to make the content that got me in this situation in the first place. But as time went on I became more and more bothered with my situation. But at the same time I knew this was my only chance to make something of myself, I knew NO MUSIC was just luck, and I would never forgive myself for passing on an opportunity such as this one.
As 2020 became 2021, views were looking good. The channel was growing steadily, so I decided to take a risk. I decided to bring back the "Bosh N Chill" Streams from 2020. Since I knew a lot of my audience was younger, I decided to play Minecraft as it was popular and I still enjoy the game to this day.
That first Minecraft stream hurt my channel's viewership. PERMANENTLY.
I don't blame that stream, but something strange happened to my viewership the same day that stream happened, not to mention the negative reception and people unsubscribing. My viewership never went back to what it was before that stream and to this day I'm not sure what did it. (I've heard from many creators since this, turns out livestreaming can in "some cases" actually harm your channel. Thanks YouTube)
Then only a few months later, there was the situation with the guy I used to collaborate with, aka MRMRPIZZA. That event really put a damper on how I viewed the content I was making, as I didn't want to be associated with him anymore. Even a YEAR LATER I still have people asking about it, so I've never really been able to move on from it. Even now I never have really had proper closure on that whole nightmare.
Late 2021 until now has been a slow and painful decline in my viewership. Yet I was working as hard as I possibly could.
No Music was a video I made in an hour, as a joke. But now I'm spending upwards of 10-12 hours or sometimes more for a video of the same length. As my editing got better and more complicated. It started to eat more and more of my time. The time it took to make the videos was also increasing because coming up with ideas was getting harder and harder.
Sure I could jump on a meme trend, but what about everything in between?
My channel was never a healthy one. I NEEDED to keep making content at this constant rate because my views would spike down if I took a couple days off. Hurting my channel even more.
My work ethic became very rapidly unhealthy as a result. Spending days writing down ideas that never get used, watching the movies again and again trying to rekindle that spark that NO MUSIC started, but it was no use. Things were still on the decline even after making ONLY the content I was known for. Sacrificing my passion projects to save what I had left.
The Rift? Cancelled.
Face Reveal? Cancelled.
The One Million Subscriber Special? Cancelled.
All to dedicate even more time towards the content I was "REALLY known for".
But still this changed nothing. I began to resent the same audience I was making these videos for. My fun hobby has turned into something I dread.
I think you can tell by now that YES. Working on this channel has had a major impact on my mental health and overall wellbeing. Especially in the last few months. I've spent so much time working on this channel that I haven't even left my city since 2019.
Interestingly since early 2020 I have left hidden messages in some of my videos expressing my dissatisfaction. But most of these messages went completely unnoticed. Most if not all of these show up for only 1 frame. If you are interested, see if you can find one. You can actually see my unhappiness progress in real time, with MEET THE DEMOMED being the last and most direct time I vented.
And now here we are in 2022. I have the same feelings as I did months ago, but now they're magnified more than ever.
So how do we fix this? Well... We don't,
I am heavily considering "retiring" from the channel. The constant uploads would be gone, and I'd be more inclined to make content I was wanting to make. Uploads would also be less frequent. I don't care about the numbers or subscriber anymore. I just want to have fun with my deranged little hobby again.
I've made peace with the fact that the channel is dying. It was dying last year too.
I accomplished what I set out to do. I made a viral video. We got the channel to a million subs. With everything I had hoped to accomplish with this channel being complete, I am content that it is past it's prime. (or maybe I've snapped I really don't know at this point).
I consider my backrooms video as my final popular video. And a great one to end with. It was one of the very few times in recent months that making one of these videos was fun. I like making the tf2 ones too.
The month I had with family was the first time I had taken such a long break. And ultimately it's made the new videos suffer, but I don't care anymore. The cycle I was trapped in was literally broken by the power of family. (Vin Diesel would be proud)
I also plan to stop streaming on Bosh Gaming. While that channel has over 10,000 subs, most of those subs never watched a single stream. And in hindsight all I really did in those streams was make a fool of myself. I plan to stream on this channel occasionally to ACTUALLY CHILL instead of being required to play a game.
Ugh...
Despite everything that I've been through to give you this content, it was an honor to do so. Maybe to some I was nothing more than a content farm. But I strived to make every video funny, and tried to make my edits look as good as possible. With over 350 videos made, I've shaved over 1% of my life off this planet. But it was worth it to make others happy, even at the expense of my own happiness.
I blame nobody but myself for how things turned out on this channel. I want you to know that. Ultimately the direction I took my content was my choice.
Whatever the future holds. I hope you come along for the ride. It's been an honor.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. And thank you for making my dream a reality.
Jacob (Bosh)
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