SURPRISE! If you didn’t know already, I am moving to Nashville in September! Couldn’t leave Winnipeg without doing one last show though, so we’re throwing a great big going away party with Boniface and Jaywood! there will be music! there will be surprise guests! there will maybe be balloons!
tickets go on sale TOMORROW at 10am so set ur reminders and come party on august 31st!
art is cool because my nightmares in real life usually involve birds or death or murder sheep attacking the crowd while i play a show, but instead, u can watch this crazy ass visualizer that involves none of the above and makes my nightmares seem more artistic than they actually are.
It’s been a whole month since I Live in Patterns was released into the wild, so what a better day to finish our deep dive with It’s Alright (a rare win from my ADHD ass being physically unable to post every day for 10 days straight)
In similar fashion to Patience, It’s Alright was created with Jt Daly in Nashville. The song is about faith and loss and grief and growth and learning that sometime letting go can make you feel better than you thought it would. Maybe you can create new roads to fulfillment instead of sticking to the only one you know.
I had already written everything up until after the second chorus. I was so confused on where to go with it, and then JT came up with this gorgeous emotional outro instrumental that immediately felt right. The only thing I could think of in that moment was “if you live in the progress, I’ll try to love the process.” I’m not sure who the “you” is in these lines. A higher power, the best version of myself, the community that brings love back into your life? It could be any of those options, depending on the day.
Thank you for listening to this album for the last month. I am endlessly grateful that my art can land in the hands of people who understand it.
we have now arrived at Patience! This song came about during an incredible trip to Nashville to work with JT Daly. JT has been someone I have looked up to as both a musician and a music fan since I was a teenager, and writing this song (and It’s Alright) with him was one of my favourite parts of making this album.
I was determined to not have a piano ballad on the record (I am a notorious piano ballad h8r). When we first started writing this song, it started out more guitar driven and high energy. Then the next day I came in with an epiphany and surrendered my hateful feelings about piano ballads, making the song fully take shape. This song ultimately snuck up on me, and I’m really happy that it did, even if it meant I had to break my piano ballad rule.
Patience is, at it’s core, a song about trauma and how it revisits us more and more as time goes on. Throughout my own journey with DBT and learning how to self soothe, I feel like I have maybe finally given myself permission to have patience with my mind. Even if I sometimes don’t believe that I deserve it, I will say it anyways in hopes that eventually I do.
Because I love giving people emotional whiplash, I decided it was a great idea to go straight from hotline into designated driver.
Written with Andy Seltzer in 2020, this is one of the older songs on the record. Many people may not know this, but I had written an entire other version of this album that was finished right as the pandemic began, and this was the last song I finished. It was also one of the only songs that made it when I decided to cut the whole album and start over. I’m really glad I kept it, even if its a bitch to sing live.
For the music video, I wanted o capture the ridiculousness of my own anxiety. Sometimes the things I’m worried about are so outlandish that it’s helpful to zoom out for a moment and make fun of myself. (the 3rd pic is ironically from the day the song was written lol it’s cursed)
after a brief intermission, we are back with 10 days of I live in patterns! day 7 is hotline!
hotline is one of the most special songwriting and recording experiences i’ve ever had. no rewrites, no edits, all in one take. it spilled out in a way that only come around once in a while, when things that have built up for years can simply be expressed as “i would do anything to leave me”. This song also weirdly works well with the Bella Swan Window Scene (iykyk) I know you’re not supposed to have favourites, but it’s my favourite song on the album. don’t tell the other songs.
CREDITS: written by me, recorded and mixed by Roman Clarke
taking a brief intermission from talking about my album to let you all know that the shirt still fits and i don’t know why child me did that with her hands
something better is, you guessed it, about patterns
patterns that occur when trauma and genetics are passed down through generations, and desperately seeking a way to find a better way to exist. one that doesn’t make you feel like you’re doomed. one where you can thrive and grow and change and love people the way you want to.
i wrote this song alone in my room, then jen got her magical hands on it and brought it to life. i’m happy that now it’s a song that allows me to yell instead of cry.
filming the music video was maybe the most fun i’ve ever had working on visuals for an album. even though listening to words like “i always knew the world was awful i’m just scared i might be too” over and over for 12 hours straight while thinking about my childhood sounds depressing, having so many amazing people around made it so memorable and exciting.
swipe to the end for my reading list for this song featuring my awful attempt at a collage
CREDITS: written by me Produced by Jenn Decilveo Additional recording by Roman Clarke
As the title track of the record, this song has such a special place in my heart. It was the catalyst that started my process of rewriting almost an entire album’s worth of songs that I had already written and recorded before the pandemic (the original version of the album will never see the light of day).
To me, this song feels almost like a sister song to push it down, and they were written around the same time. it’s the vulnerability underneath the charade. if push it down is parading your emotions around for entertainment, i live in patterns is the process of actually feeling them.
This song took so many forms over the years that there ended up being 2 versions of it on the album. one is my own internal monologue, and the other features Alix Page who brought her own perspective. alix’s voice is so unique and her writing is so special, i’m so grateful she agreed to contribute to my lil song
CREDITS: Produced by Roman Clarke Mixed by Pedro Calloni Guitar: Charlotte Friesen
I am deathly afraid of throwing up. Which is why I was having a panic attack on the plane. Mainly because I cannot think of a worse place to throw up. Also because my medication at the time was constantly making my heart beat really fast. Anyways, apparently it was bad enough for me to open this song with a story about it.
Nightmare was written in 2020, a week before the real nightmare of our lives began (lol). Jen Decilvio and I had just met, and Jen was able to help me take my chaos and turn it into art in such a powerful way that I still listen to this song with a giant smile on my face. The music and the lyrics of this song are so deeply intertwined that I don’t think you can have one without the other. The noise and chaos and static is all shoved into 3 minutes and 35 seconds.
second pic is of my own personal nightmare, which is holding a bird. i am scared of birds. this happened right after i got home from the Nightmare writing session. it was torture.
CREDITS: Produced by Jenn Decilveo in LA Mixed by Neal Avron Additional engineering by Adam Fuhr
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SURPRISE! If you didn’t know already, I am moving to Nashville in September! Couldn’t leave Winnipeg without doing one last show though, so we’re throwing a great big going away party with Boniface and Jaywood! there will be music! there will be surprise guests! there will maybe be balloons!
tickets go on sale TOMORROW at 10am so set ur reminders and come party on august 31st!
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art is cool because my nightmares in real life usually involve birds or death or murder sheep attacking the crowd while i play a show, but instead, u can watch this crazy ass visualizer that involves none of the above and makes my nightmares seem more artistic than they actually are.
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It’s been a whole month since I Live in Patterns was released into the wild, so what a better day to finish our deep dive with It’s Alright (a rare win from my ADHD ass being physically unable to post every day for 10 days straight)
In similar fashion to Patience, It’s Alright was created with Jt Daly in Nashville. The song is about faith and loss and grief and growth and learning that sometime letting go can make you feel better than you thought it would. Maybe you can create new roads to fulfillment instead of sticking to the only one you know.
I had already written everything up until after the second chorus. I was so confused on where to go with it, and then JT came up with this gorgeous emotional outro instrumental that immediately felt right. The only thing I could think of in that moment was “if you live in the progress, I’ll try to love the process.” I’m not sure who the “you” is in these lines. A higher power, the best version of myself, the community that brings love back into your life? It could be any of those options, depending on the day.
Thank you for listening to this album for the last month. I am endlessly grateful that my art can land in the hands of people who understand it.
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10 Days of ILIP
Day 9: Patience
we have now arrived at Patience! This song came about during an incredible trip to Nashville to work with JT Daly. JT has been someone I have looked up to as both a musician and a music fan since I was a teenager, and writing this song (and It’s Alright) with him was one of my favourite parts of making this album.
I was determined to not have a piano ballad on the record (I am a notorious piano ballad h8r). When we first started writing this song, it started out more guitar driven and high energy. Then the next day I came in with an epiphany and surrendered my hateful feelings about piano ballads, making the song fully take shape. This song ultimately snuck up on me, and I’m really happy that it did, even if it meant I had to break my piano ballad rule.
Patience is, at it’s core, a song about trauma and how it revisits us more and more as time goes on. Throughout my own journey with DBT and learning how to self soothe, I feel like I have maybe finally given myself permission to have patience with my mind. Even if I sometimes don’t believe that I deserve it, I will say it anyways in hopes that eventually I do.
CREDITS:
Written by myself and JT Daly
piano by Chad Howat
mixed by Neal Avron
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10 Days of ILIP
Day 8: Designated Driver
Because I love giving people emotional whiplash, I decided it was a great idea to go straight from hotline into designated driver.
Written with Andy Seltzer in 2020, this is one of the older songs on the record. Many people may not know this, but I had written an entire other version of this album that was finished right as the pandemic began, and this was the last song I finished. It was also one of the only songs that made it when I decided to cut the whole album and start over. I’m really glad I kept it, even if its a bitch to sing live.
For the music video, I wanted o capture the ridiculousness of my own anxiety. Sometimes the things I’m worried about are so outlandish that it’s helpful to zoom out for a moment and make fun of myself. (the 3rd pic is ironically from the day the song was written lol it’s cursed)
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after a brief intermission, we are back with 10 days of I live in patterns! day 7 is hotline!
hotline is one of the most special songwriting and recording experiences i’ve ever had. no rewrites, no edits, all in one take. it spilled out in a way that only come around once in a while, when things that have built up for years can simply be expressed as “i would do anything to leave me”. This song also weirdly works well with the Bella Swan Window Scene (iykyk) I know you’re not supposed to have favourites, but it’s my favourite song on the album. don’t tell the other songs.
CREDITS:
written by me, recorded and mixed by Roman Clarke
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taking a brief intermission from talking about my album to let you all know that the shirt still fits and i don’t know why child me did that with her hands
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day 6/10: Something Better
something better is, you guessed it, about patterns
patterns that occur when trauma and genetics are passed down through generations, and desperately seeking a way to find a better way to exist. one that doesn’t make you feel like you’re doomed. one where you can thrive and grow and change and love people the way you want to.
i wrote this song alone in my room, then jen got her magical hands on it and brought it to life. i’m happy that now it’s a song that allows me to yell instead of cry.
filming the music video was maybe the most fun i’ve ever had working on visuals for an album. even though listening to words like “i always knew the world was awful i’m just scared i might be too” over and over for 12 hours straight while thinking about my childhood sounds depressing, having so many amazing people around made it so memorable and exciting.
swipe to the end for my reading list for this song featuring my awful attempt at a collage
CREDITS:
written by me
Produced by Jenn Decilveo
Additional recording by Roman Clarke
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Day 5/10: I Live In Patterns!!
As the title track of the record, this song has such a special place in my heart. It was the catalyst that started my process of rewriting almost an entire album’s worth of songs that I had already written and recorded before the pandemic (the original version of the album will never see the light of day).
To me, this song feels almost like a sister song to push it down, and they were written around the same time. it’s the vulnerability underneath the charade. if push it down is parading your emotions around for entertainment, i live in patterns is the process of actually feeling them.
This song took so many forms over the years that there ended up being 2 versions of it on the album. one is my own internal monologue, and the other features Alix Page who brought her own perspective. alix’s voice is so unique and her writing is so special, i’m so grateful she agreed to contribute to my lil song
CREDITS:
Produced by Roman Clarke
Mixed by Pedro Calloni
Guitar: Charlotte Friesen
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DAY 4/10: Nightmare
I am deathly afraid of throwing up. Which is why I was having a panic attack on the plane. Mainly because I cannot think of a worse place to throw up. Also because my medication at the time was constantly making my heart beat really fast. Anyways, apparently it was bad enough for me to open this song with a story about it.
Nightmare was written in 2020, a week before the real nightmare of our lives began (lol). Jen Decilvio and I had just met, and Jen was able to help me take my chaos and turn it into art in such a powerful way that I still listen to this song with a giant smile on my face. The music and the lyrics of this song are so deeply intertwined that I don’t think you can have one without the other. The noise and chaos and static is all shoved into 3 minutes and 35 seconds.
second pic is of my own personal nightmare, which is holding a bird. i am scared of birds. this happened right after i got home from the Nightmare writing session. it was torture.
CREDITS:
Produced by Jenn Decilveo in LA
Mixed by Neal Avron
Additional engineering by Adam Fuhr
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