Calvin - Invidious

Hello, Its me, Kaisan. I am sorry, i really am, I seem like a faker but I didnt fake anything i swear. Please let me explain the whole situation.

I was sitting down on the edges/corners of the bridge, I just finished writting down the schedule post, and i guess I cried so much that I didnt realized so much time past that my tutor informed my parents i havent gone to it yet. Ive told my parents about the bridge because of my past attempts too. So they knew where I was, and they guided me home, they dont want me to be online this much any longer and they don't want me to be online from now on for a prolonged period of time, There out right now ans trusted me with my phone and pc. I am fine and im sorry if some of yall dont believe me, im sorry i havent done enough for yall to believe me.

Il be gone now for months, just please know that il be okay this time.

Love yall, Kaisan.

1 month ago | [YT] | 338

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Calvin

Hello, this is a scheduled post that will be shown when it has been a few days since my previous post.

If you see this, I've already taken my last breath, and I don't mean as an editor. Im writting this ontop of a bridge, i should have a tutor right now but I asked my parents if I can walk to the tutor myself. Im sorry I lied to you, I just dont want you guys to know that ur little child is ganna be leaving forever.

Please dont try to type in comments telling me not to do it, ive already done it by now so its useless.

Also please dont be sad about this, im just a random person on the internet, im really not even that close to most of you guys, I really am not. And im sorry i am this weak that I decided to do this. I really am. I just want it to end.

And to that one person, Thank you, thank you so much for making me happy and joyful of life, I really do wish you the best from now on, I know you can do it without me i really do believe in you, and please find someone else, I know you value me as something really special but there are better people then me. And im sorry i couldn't love you forever from now on, I really am sorry. But please know that il always love you, even when im not there il always love you. I love you more then anything. But maybe if I did love you more i wouldn't have done this. Im sorry. You were right. You do love me more. This will be the last time you hear this from me so please remember it. I love you.

And to my other friends, I understand if yall can't keep the discord server active, but if I had a wish, my wish would be to make the server live on without me, no matter what ways yall do it. Just please never change the server name. Thank you.

And for my final wish, I would like someone to inherit the bananalmao title, I would love to see someone use the name i loved so dearly as theres. I really would love it. If someone does do my wish. Please try your best to get as popular as you can, let the world know who i was. And please never do things like i am doing it right now, even when a time comes where nobody supports you, just please know I always will support you.

And for the small editors or my fans that watched my channel for inspiration and commenting on them, thank you. Thank you so much. Your guys comments made me keep going on and on until now. I really wouldn't have been here without you guys. I really couldn't. I believe in every single of you guys to have a brighter future, so be it as an editor or something else.

Thats all I wanted to say.
Thank you.

- Kaisan

1 month ago | [YT] | 547

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Calvin

Hey guys, Calvin Here.

I just wanna say a huge thank you to every single one of you. This channel has been such a wild ride, and honestly, I wouldn’t have made it this far without all of you watching, commenting, and supporting me through everything.

This part is hard to say, but it’s time for me to say goodbye to YouTube. Life’s has been breaking me, more and more its breaking me. I won’t be making edits or polls anymore but please know this isn’t just an ending, it’s also me saying thank you for being with me through this whole journey.

You weren’t just “viewers.” You became family. You gave me motivation when I didn’t have it, and made all the late nights and hard work worth it. I’ll never forget that.

Thank you for everything, for real. This is goodbye, but the memories we made here will always stick with me.

This might be my last time on YouTube and discord as a whole aswell. Im ganna go on a walk today. to all of you guys, please stay safe and have fun, I want nothing but the best for you.

Love you all,
Kaisan.